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[Aug. 23rd, 2006|07:53 am] |
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I'm seeing a guy. Whos a really great guy. We've been hanging out for about 5 months now, and it just recently probobly within the last month just got serious (I think). The only thing that scares me is that he wants to move back to new york so bad. I'm terrified of that day that he's going to tell me he's leaving. He said to me the other night "Ashley how long would it take you to save up money? Lets move to philadelphia." The only problem with that is if anyone knows about the guy that I am talking about you know how sarcastic he is. I don't know. I really like him and care about him but I'm so scared of getting hurt :( |
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[Jun. 1st, 2006|03:48 pm] |
Melbourne has been exciting the past couple of weeks...
I was kind of down sunday because no one wanted to go to see calavera with me. Phil finaly asked me what was up and I told him about it. He just told me to get in the car we were going. Phil is a great guy I'm excited to have finally met someone that is as much of a sarcastic asshole as I am :)... |
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| I'm tired... |
[Mar. 7th, 2006|05:02 pm] |
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| | Desending angel-The misfits | ] |
I'm tired of being poor.
I'm tired of being alone.
I'm just so goddamn tired...
Life is starting to become so hard that all I want to do is sleep.
Why can't it just become a little easier. All I do is work, and I have nothing to show for it becuase my family is struggling. Everything I earn goes into my household. Why? Because I don't want to live in a box. My friends are all mad at me because I have a hard time calling people or asking for help. I don't want to lose anyone, but I also have a hard time asking for help. |
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[Jan. 27th, 2006|08:33 am] |
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| | Devil Smile- Nekromantix | ] |
Work is hard 9-10 hour days are getting very tiresome.
I do nothing but work, and sleep.
I'm not going to lie wednesday was the highlight of my week. Nate came over and watched movies with me. Leave it to Nate to always come around in the end and make me smile.
I miss Mere Lila and Becca!!!!!!
Are all the good ole' times gone. I hope not.
Hopefully this weekend I will get a mini vacation and spend friday and saturday in melbourne with becca devin paulie and ang! Lets cross our fingers! |
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[Jan. 9th, 2006|03:52 pm] |
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| | Blue 42- Haste the Day | ] |
Yesterday was the show in stuart, and it was an amazing show. My fair verona did amazing. I can definatly say that I was terrified to be that close to the stage. Then later in the night when we were about to leave Lila heard someone say something about me. My normal reaction would be to jump up and say something, or get in her face. For some reason though, because I didn't feel good I just let what she said to me effect my self esteem. Now I am just disappointed in myself...
Oh well....
I just need to move past it. |
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| I'm fucking irrrrrrrrrrrrrrrate! |
[Jan. 6th, 2006|06:47 pm] |
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So I just found out today that my mom's boyfriend is having one of his ala teen bitches stay here for a weekend....
Oh yes and guess where she's staying. MY ROOM!!!!!!!!!!!! All I ask for is just a little notice. Seriously. Talk about over stepping boundries. |
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| ouch... |
[Jan. 6th, 2006|12:01 am] |
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My lip is swollen and it hurts.
But I can't complain to much because I look badass :)
Thank you for an awesome day mere, lila, and blake! |
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[Jan. 5th, 2006|01:39 am] |
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| | Planning a prison break- receiving end of sirens | ] |
It's another night, and the same thing happens like clockwork. I can't sleep, and I'm not sure why. Memories and thoughts keep circling around in my head. You know things I've done, things I wish I could have done, the people I miss, places I miss. Every night the same thing, but whats even worse is the only things that seems to make it stop I have to stop as well. Is this withdraw, or is it actually time for me to face reality? |
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| One day women will all become monsters |
[Jan. 4th, 2006|11:46 pm] |
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| | All Bodies- Between the buried and me | ] |
Holy crap I'm back on Livejournal!!!!!! New and improved. How exciting. |
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